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The Bizarre Resentment You Can Have For People (And How It’s Not Real)
When I used to work in a club, I would encounter tons of nasty customers.
It really pissed me off and affected my mental health.
But here is what was bizarre:
Week 1: I’d get upset with Guy A. I’d ruminate over it for the entire week.
Week 2: I’d get upset with Guy B. I’d then run into Guy A in the club, who does not know I am upset with him. Guy A would say hi to me politely and even offer me a drink. And I am like, “Fine… I guess he’s not so bad.” I’d proceed to ruminate over Guy B for the rest of the week.
Week 3: I’d get upset with Guy C. I’d run into Guy B and all is forgiven! The world is filled with hope and compassion!
This shit repeated over and over.
It got me thinking of course. “Why is it the person I hoped burn in hell last week is now suddenly okay to me?”
“Why is it all the anger and resentment I felt for them disappeared so quickly?”
“Why am I even upset at all in the first place?”
It’s a bizarre form of resentment.
Does it actually take another, bigger enemy for you to find peace with smaller ones?
Is the anger and resentment only strong when it’s fresh?
Or is it cause we give it power by thinking about it?
I guess at the end of the day, it’s about making the choice to let it go.
And it comes in two forms: Get out there and interact with people. Like it or not, they will help you let it go.
Then you do your own work by letting shit go internally.
