Agree with this wholeheartedly. You wrote it on a philosophical level, another level which I just tried to make a shift on.
I find that as an artist, the fear always comes in the form of fear of making a decent living, or fear of going broke.
Then we veer off course and start chasing money.
As a result, the art suffers and we produce our most mediocre work.
I always veer off course and I take a lot of time to go back to my ‘why.’
It’s such a paradox. Life is a trip huh? For sure, it’s about the feelings we aim for, that’s why we create.